My Style Metamorphosis
The timeline of my constantly changing, yet somehow still awkward style is neatly marked by the stores I frequented. Limited Too was my first love, which was followed by Abercrombie on the night my parents came home with a paper bag with a half naked guy on it, then to Pacsun when I learned angst, which matured into some amalgamation of H&M, Urban Outfitters and Zara for some edgy but not too edgy fashion, and now ??? I’m no longer tied down to any store really, for two possible reasons, one practical one being that I am sadly out of money and the other reason being a change in the way I want my style to look. Scanning this list, clearly, I was never one to think too outside the box because I’m pretty sure all of these stores were the most popular for my age and time. My style was never all that unique, but reflective of the crowd. But I think I can say that that’s no longer true, and that my style has become more me and less ambiguously of the common crowd.
Freshman year, I was the typical hipster rebel and dyed the tips of my hair purple, pierced the helix of my left ear, and drew my eyeliner into extra pointy cat-eyes. I was triumphant. My mom was not. My typical outfit consisted of tight, tight black jeggings (I tried them on recently and cried because of how ugly they were), a pair of black Dr. Martens or slip-on vans, and some sort of loose t-shirt and maybe a plaid shirt thrown on top. In retrospect, my style seems pretty representative of a tumblr hipster slash angsty 2000’s emo kid. Nevertheless, I actually felt really comfortable in this.
After a while, for whatever reason, I stopped feeling so enthusiastic about my aesthetic. As Korean dramas always do, one called Age of Youth played a key role in me walking even further away from the things that used to define me. In Age of Youth, one of the characters was wearing a plaid shirt, styled almost exactly the way I’ve described above, and I suddenly realized that I hated how it looked. The rest is history.
After that, I kind of wallowed in a lack of inspiration. I wasn’t even sure if I was interested in fashion anymore. Dressing myself was becoming a chore.
But thankfully, I landed an internship at Rosie Assoulin this past summer, and that provided the fresh breeze I needed in my slowly decaying (and mostly imaginary) closet. Though the individuals that I was surrounded by were fashion inspirations themselves, more striking to me was their commitment to their aesthetic, which in itself, successfully and colorfully reflected their individualities. Another intern and I were talking and I commented that the way she dressed was always so strikingly her, and she replied that she could never leave the house unless every single detail felt 100% right to her. This isn’t a mind-blowing or revolutionary concept, but it reminded me what fashion meant to me, and it motivated me to truly figure out my style. (Being constantly surrounded by fashionable people and Rosie Assoulin samples didn’t hurt either.)
I probably had a more logical approach than most when I tried to figure out my indecisive self once and for all. I scrolled through the fashion people I followed on Instagram and identified what details drew me to certain looks. I realized that I love color and pattern combinations that both clash and complement. And while I appreciated some more ridiculous combinations as well, through some experimentation, I found that when it applied to myself, I’m more comfortable with some sort of structure. A lot of this structure is contributed by big, sweeping silhouettes, particularly in pants and skirts. Other things that contributed to my new aesthetic were cutting my bangs and gradually shortening my eyeliner in favor of mascara. It was a lot of watching and surveying and trying and balancing, but I feel good where I am now. Even though I have, in a sense, pinned down my style rather than leaving it shapeless, I'm reluctant to describe my style with specific nouns and adjectives because I don't feel like I'm prescribing to a single aesthetic. I'm simply wearing the things that feel true and good to me at this point in my life right now.
Scroll thru 2 see some of my looks this past week.